i'm in california for work this week. it's a long week - i left at 6 monday morning and won't be home until late friday night. but it's been a good trip. i'm more revved about my job than i have been in a long long long time, and i've actually done a decent job sleeping and being social this week, both things i have historically struggled with during work trips.
it was hard to leave the kids this time, especially ek. she has been super delicate and fragile lately - very sensitive. i am not always good at handling it/knowing what to say to her when she gets upset about something. i tried prepping her a few days before i left so i didn't just leave in the night without warning, but i am not sure if this made it worse? she had anxiety about it from the moment i told her, especially the night before my departure. she even got out of bed about an hour after we thought she was asleep sunday night and came into the living room, teary-eyed, to ask me "who's going to be the mommy while you're gone?". my sweet girl. it's hard not to get frustrated at her hyper-emotional states, especially when they interfere with her sleep and hollis's (because sleep helps with the emotions, too - a catch-22). but i'm trying to be patient, encourage her to use her mindfulness tools, and breathe through it.
anyway. i'm ready to be home, in spite of the good week. i think we're going to go camping saturday night and we have a fundraiser for ek's school sunday evening that should be super fun too. i miss jb and those little mongrels.
