helpless.

hollis is still sick - his fever jumped up to 104.3 last night, which is just terrifying (and also clearly not related to the MMR vaccine).  i brought him in this morning and his white count is normal, he doesn't have the flu, and his ears, throat and lungs are all good.  so, big relief, but i still have a virus-riddled bebe who is sad.  and i still have a job to do (like a work-job, not a mom-job), even though my heart/gut tells me the most important thing is to care for this niblet.  helpless.

i got notes home the last two days in a row about emme scratching/clawing other children and drawing blood during a confrontation.  one was about chalk.  the other was about space for her nap mat on a shelf.  her nails were definitely too long (my fault - again, no excuses but MAN it is so hard to keep up with every.single.thing.).  but, even with short nails, she could have hurt these other kids.  this level of passion/fury/intensity in my sweet girl is hard to know how to channel.  i don't know if i should be worried about it or if it's within the realm of totally normal three year-old behavior.  i want to just know what the solution is, and i don't.  so, here again, i am helpless.

and the obvious answer: ask for help.  which i'm notoriously bad about.  but i suppose it takes a village for a reason, right?  because we can't do this (or at least, not well) on our own....